i find myself saying
i wish time would go faster, or
i wish things were like they used to be
but i know i'm glad they're not

what the hell is wrong with me
is anyone else this much of a contradiction?

i have absolutely no discipline
however i was told today that i'm a scholarly stoner.
i'll make a list that no one will see
and see how much i stick to it

i'm only disappointing myself
and that's an accomplishment too