identity crisis

who am i.
what do i talk about when i meet new people.
what do i talk about with close friends when we are sitting at coffee shops

what do people talk about when they arent talking about art and literature and poetry and philosophy?
i don't know
i don't get it

suddenly i feel like i've forgotten how to be myself, just sit and be myself and not look around and think about something to say that really has not a goddamned thing to do with whatever else is going on
i mean, behind all the stories, humor, regurgitated culture, what the fuck do people talk about

i wonder about the nature of relationships. what is the point? why do they need to spend so much goddamned time together? what do you need to do to make things the best they can possibly be?

why did i get so fucking dressed up tonight to do jack shit?!