I need this I've needed this for a while now
I feel like crying and I know that I'm hurting
everyone else

but sometimes I can't help but look at
flesh and watch it separate into skin
muscle blood bone sinews flowing out
cleanly freshy cut beautiful

I wish I knew a way to just cleanse myself

I feel so separated

just the way if feels when you
cut something in half

where are my feelings

carry me out of this
it's like something
sticky pulling suctioning to me
won't let me go and i need to
be saved so hard

my chest hurts
it's like i'm bound
(it's making it hard to breathe)