violentmakeover

SELF-DESTRUCTION

new mode of operation

not good at life, not good at anything
good at painting
good at writing, reading, singing, helping
i like dancing
i like being happy
I LIKE BEING SAD
good at pitying myself and wallowing in that
don't take responsibility for things i do to myself
but need to.
need to prioritize.
WHAT THE HELL DOES PRIORITIZE MEAN ANYWAY?!
fuck.
(too much of that too)
YOU CAN'T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT
but if you try sometimes (you just might find) you get what you need

somehow i wish i could get motivated to just be good or be responsible or just NOT BE SUCH A DUMB FUCKING SLUT

deepsigh

i am covered in graffiti not art. not beauty. ugly vandalism. ugliness.
i want so badly to be cleansed