i'm so busy i don't even have time to bleed

no time to bleed, but that's all i need
i look around and want to smash everything
i hate my life and all that i've made
the pain gets worse everyday after day

i look at my wrists and i see the vein
i close my eyes and i feel the pain
i take my time and think deliberately
but the reasons won't come to me

i need one more day to be myself
one more day to heal myself
one more day to take the time
one more day to sit and cry...

the things i want are never there
i'm finding it hard to even care
i bring all this upon myself
and i need one more day