5:32 am
what happens when there's nothing left to say, and you feel like fucking screaming, "i want so badly to love you," but to say that would only make him hate you more. i don't even really understand why he feels like i hurt him so badly to begin with. for some reason it seems like i always think i can make it up by my physical pain... and i would cut off my own arm to prove that i wanted him.
i wish that i could make it up to you
but i know there's nothing i can do
if i bled myself to prove
would you somehow believe i loved you
you're lying in the next room
and i'm only thinking about you
i feel like fucking punching myself in the face
if it would only show you
it always ends up like this
and i just cant forgive myself anymore
to throw myself under a train
would be letting myself off easy
if i cut off all my fingers
if i sold my soul to you
then would you believe
that i'm in love with you
